Happy Halloween!!

 I don't really have time to celebrate Halloween. It's actually for young kids and those whose heart are for the fun it goes celebrating it. My kids are grown-ups already. Sure is it's great to be young at heart or be childish and why not be joyous about this once a year celebration.

We had so much fun many years ago and many fondest memories how Halloween is a part of my kids growing up because they got to wear costumes in schools. It's almost like mandatory in every schools in Canada to have fun and honor this spooky, fun-filled event to add more vibrant colors to their students social ability to get along with other kids. It is more like an inter-active to socialize with other kids with an intention to keep the students acquainted with their school friends. It is almost educational, beneficial to kids growth and keep their personality at its strength when it is most needed.

So have fun and be safe!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

GOD WITH US! GOD BLESS US   👼👻👸💃🙌🙏

 

P.S. Click labels to find out what happened in the past.

It Could Happen To You

 Maybe I wont question so many things that is of not my concern and thus bother if I am not watching those medical series: HOUSE Medical series, THE GOOD DOCTOR, The NURSES, The Italian TV Series DOC - NELLE TU MANI regarding doctors and their patients, 911 Emergency. You know the "highlight of the last episode of NELLE TU MANI? The estranged couple (Dr. Andreas and his ex-wife) "pulled a trick one more time." The TRICK was sort of to cut the red tape in order to procure the URGENT need for medical supply that could SAVE HUNDREDS TO THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE. That trick is meant as MEDICAL MISSION.👌Is that good?

 If I have no knowledge of Medicines, no knowledge of Pharmaceutical products, maybe if I am not educated and thus assume that everything will be okay through the healing power of Great Provider out there that there is miracle about to happen, that maybe no question asked assurance that everything will be okay. But you know what? Knowledge is Power! You have the right to know.

I am not superhuman, I am not super woman, wonder woman or anybody with super powers. I am a human being blessed with ID, EGO & SUPEREGO. The promise of SUPEREGO having to be the JUDGE with "moral compass"  having extra access to sixth sense if there's any as in being not skeptic of the powers that be. The judge protects the ID & EGO from being destroyed, played and manipulated. Truly not a form of narcissism. Please study Psychology.

Sometimes the way I think or the manner I think had sent some negative energy to few people who don't really like me. You know that I can feel it. I know who are genuinely happy to see me. I know who stopped talking to me because of my medical condition as if for no apparent reason keep on being a snob like I don't exist. There's that one individual who happened to be in constant appearance every hour on the hour on Facebook showing all her photos and how I have to react with her photos suddenly stopped texting, videocam or just plainly stopped chatting me. Wow! Strange! Another individual in my friend list told me to offer everything to God. She's the one who thinks and feels that she is the Virgin Mary. ((Don't get me wrong here. I AM FOR THE ISRAELITES!! 💓🙏I wish the very beautiful Gal Gadot is a real WONDER WOMAN so that she could help Israel and the Jews from all the malady and chaotic war against their enemies)). 

 I'm not in anyway overtly making myself the drama queen in my own life. I don't deserve this suffering. Why I have to suffer like this? 

I know of so many people who are delighted to see me. They are remarkable people (almost like angels) providing me with the wit and humor, the kind of wisdom I need during this agony. It is an agony of defeat. Feels like it when I don't feel strong. When I am of my weakest point crying in pain and all the negative bad news I heard from other people. 

IT COULD HAPPEN TO YOU. What I experienced or experiencing could happen to you. It's not a warning. It's just randomly someone or somebody out there is out to get you. It's like a domino effect. What to watch out for?  Make sure you are alert or aware that your "Health Team" is trying to save your life. Just like the Honourable RCMP they have the powers of PROTECT & SERVE & SAVE LIVES. In all these struggles I can just trust my inner circles, my family close families, close friends my Health Team, and whoever is praying for my recovery.

THANK YOU & GOD BLESS YOU!💓🙏

Return To My Blogging Ritual

 Once again, I was absent from blogging for a while because I was so sick throwing up all the foods I was having for meals and even the meds, tums and gravol have been vomitted. It was randomly throwing up for 3 days so on Monday night my husband had taken me to the local ER Hospital and waited almost 40-50 minutes for the doctor to arrive but before that the nurse made sure that I had 2 tablets of Sofran to melt under my tongue so that I wont have nausea. After 12 MN, the doctor came to check on me, asked information and then told me that the medtech have to do the bloodwork and cardiogram. The medtech took or poked needle on my vein to draw out blood samples for blood work and she also administered the cardiogram on my body especially on my chest. Then the nurse came again for me to have 2 tablets of Sofran for nausea until the doctor came at 2 AM and told me, "there's nothing wrong with your blood." "You can go home!" What?  THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH YOUR BLOOD! She told me again. I was surprised. She didn't mention about the cardiogram's result. So, maybe nothing's wrong too. So my husband and I are back home after past 2 AM. Went back to sleep.

Next day, I was feeling confused. If there's nothing wrong with my blood why I have to be at the dialysis unit of that another hospital? When I informed the nurse about it in the other hospital, he told me "you should have stayed in that hospital and didn't come here."

It's weird right? They asked me if I still can pee. I told the nurses that I can pee 6 to 7 x per day (within 24 hours). My urine is light yellow, NOT brown or red. It's a normal, regular urine. It 's not even smelly. My bowel movement is regular and normal. Oh, well something so weird right? Mystery, mystery!!!!!

Anyway, after my dialysis last Tuesday we went driving home on a very stormy highway, and to our surprise Qualicum Beach, Cranberry Junction, Comox Valley had its first snowfall. It's snowing!!!!!!! OMG! It was like a wonderful majestic scenery of Winter Wonderland when all the trees: cedar, douglas firs, maples and birch trees along the highway were covered with snow. Then next City Campbell River, no rain, no storm, no snow!! Where's the snow? Oh well, that's weird? 

I am in search of Santa Claus and Angels actually. lol

I Have To Deal With This Over & Over Again

 Finally I'm home! Oh my God!!!! My daughter was so excited to see me, hugged and embraced me, her eyes twinkling when she opened the door for us and said, "Mom))), Mom))), Mom!!!!!!!!!and my husband who picked me up at the hospital. I'm glad and overjoyed to be back home. Atlas! I can be with my loving family: husband and children and Echo the puppy. Even Echo (Eko) was so happy, wiggling her tail non-stop, hugging and licking my toes and legs and jumping frequently as much as possible then gets tired and almost  breathless from jumping. OMG! My son, one of the twins are already asleep. My son in Vancouver doesn't know and aware of my condition or it will emotionally devastate him so we are quiet about it.

I'm feeling good, however my doctors thought I'm not. Why not? Oh, I know my Blood Pressure is so high, as in above maximum. It can go higher than over 200/   or lower than 150/74. It varies day to day on medication. 

You know what I love about being in that hospital in NRGH? All the medical staff: doctors, nurses, interns, therapist, laboratory med-techs, porters, laundry and janitors, dietitian, cooks, food delivery service, porters...all of them are so kind, compassionate, dedicated to their jobs. They are so hardworking able to work for long hours from 7 AM to 7 PM until their reliever comes to relieve them for the next shift which is 7 PM to 7 AM. The patients get their medicines on time, always checking Vital Signs (Checking blood pressure, pulse,  body temperature, weight). They measure your fluids (liquids) intake including urine. They will check on you every hour even at night. They are likened to BIG HERO 6 -  Baymax. At the scale of 1-10 how much is your pain?

When it comes to food ration for patients. The menu or meals on tray are deliberately portioned and checked. Dietary measures are simply strictly followed. My food is little bit bland because of no salt (bawal ang salt) in but the preparation and presentation of the meals are almost restaurant/hotel style. Wow! Thank you! I like those roast beef with gravy and mashed potatoes and steamed green beans.

What else needs to mention in my blog of memories? So many memories... I am overwhelmed and overloaded.

Okay ciao for now because some other people might tell me to shut up as in am I being over dramatic?

Not actually. If I am overly dramatic I will cry every hour and blame myself for having to come to this situation when I am not a smoker, not a drinker of alcohol and my urine is clear light yellow. I peed 7 X everyday filling up a gallon. My bowel movement is regular. Doctors said my kidney is small. MY KIDNEY IS SMALL. She ( the one who did the ultrasound) didn't say that my kidney is damaged. My blood pressure is high and has damaged my kidney according to another health care worker. WTH?????????????????????? That's the reason for dialysis. When I was released from the first hospital, Dr P. said that my condition is stable. It has stabilized and I just have to keep my BP in check to lower than at least 160/-   The reason why I have to be in the other hospital it's because the kidney specialist "wants to see me in person." I was taken by ambulance to the other hospital without loud siren because  my condition is ok, stable or has been stabilized. However, when I get to that hospital swarm of bees approached me! lol. Medical students and nurses (student-interns) were all over me wanting to poke their needles on my skin, on my arm. They found a "target." According to one of the health care workers said that I became the pin cushion! These medical students and interns (nurses on practice) used me as training ground for practice!! How to  poke needles on veins, how they are trained to administered catheter, how blood work is done and how IV saline solution is administered...  and so on forth until my hand and arms looked black and blue. I am not a sadist or pseudo-masochist (are they?)  but what was happening is like WTH is this? Who are they? That was such a torture!  If I am in a very serious condition I will be in the ICU and the only attending physicians are the specialists, RNs nobody else. No medical or practicing student nurses. Because know what? I am not a guinea pig! I know! I had an OJT in military hospital. Then another stranger asked me if I have money or cash? What? Why? Do I have assets? Then they usually scan the hospital CARE bracelet they put on my wrist.   Is she begging me for money? OMG! Looks like everyday was sort of a nightmare. I'm glad watching vampires, vampire academy, zombie movies and comedy movies had helped me deal with this bizarre condition. Hmm, they really like  BLOOD!

THEY ARE VERY THIRSTY! TOO THIRSTY FOR BLOOD!

They  always asked me if I feel any pain and I'm dizzy. To tell you the truth I don't feel any pain or dizzy. Then they let me be on my own. Darn it. Should I be in pain? Tell me do I have to scream that I am in pain to inform them that I AM A HUMAN BEING? I was numb from all the pain they caused me. I'm glad the nurse just told me that they made me looked like a "pin cushion" not "pinhead" of Hellraiser,

I know if I'm in DR. HOUSE Medical Series, I know how highly intelligent is Dr. House and his Diagnostic Team will figure it out for me. I'm not in his medical series so be it. I am not Dr. House and whoever is Dr. House in that hospital maybe he is badly in search for Vicodin. ha ha ha!

Just recently, news in the local newspaper of a nurse (RN) caught stealing painkillers (pain medication) in the hospital where she was working for years and years. Probably been caught by co-workers! Her license was revoked and was terminated. Another nurse was caught. She was a "fake nurse." She faked her way working in hospitals for over a year without  being caught!!!!!!! Until one day... OMG! How could that happened? The hospital staff, the nurses who worked with her, the doctors in that hospital didn't even knew until the fake nurse was caught. Wow! How that situation is possible? To find those kind of news? Seek pages of newspapers within BC area or find it in the internet if you are   interested to know their names. Know what? HOSPITALS SHOULD HAVE DETECTIVES. Employ Magnum P.I. Have a local FBI inside the Hospital. Hope that helps.

 

 

 

The Right Way

 Don't let me be misunderstood. Yeah feeling like autistic! Nobody understand human like me with autism. Always having the freedom what's in my mind without thinking what others can fully understand what I meant. Being autistic is being straight forward on the things that matters to us not matter to them not overtly feeling self-centered as we don't really feel that way. 

There are things, attitude and behaviour and just simple humor that is too weird for normal people to absorb. Yeah, dude, my sense of humor is somewhat too wacky! You only laugh at last when you have the same kind of humor just like me.

Autistic people are so weird, frank and they don't worry about the reaction or the stimuli of how you felt but we have feelings too. We are too sensitive. We are not trying to be stubborn it's just there must be justified reason to everything. That everything should have a balance of power, responsibility and everything should be tackled in fairness, just and righteous. 

How fair you are in a matter of dealing with the truth, certain tricky situation, and how honest you are in your chosen field of work? How you deal with the best solution that favors the righteous? How well, smart and responsible are you to bridge the gap?

A Lot Of Foods

Wow! That's weird! My blog post suddenly gone even if I saved it. What the h- just happened? I couldn't believe it myself. It''s more like the robot machine didn't like those words. It's not a foul language. It's just probably has something to do with combat.  lol Jokers!

Anyway, let us start again. 

Being a pharma medical representative to being a line cook here in Canada is surely a matter of perspective. Changing a career doesn't mean it is a demotion because there are many benefits to such changes. I know of a friend who was a doctor in Philippines turned fish gutters here in BC. The higher salary and benefits she is most proud of. It is an honorable job. It's hard work. Electrician turned janitor, textile industry specialist turned into store clerk/merchandiser/cashier. Caregivers turned into nurses.  Then here comes a CPA from Ayala who would rather be a nurse here in Canada and the rewards are greater. Higher pay-cheque, bigger opportunity. I worked there too in Ayala as an accounting clerk in a travel agency on OJT basis for short period of time. I hate staring at those numbers my vision suffers with millions of numbers. lol. Actually my job description is double checking those numbers are correct for income purposes. 

Look how wealthy MAKATI is the wealthiest city, highly competitive highly industrialized financial city in the Philippines. They have so many skyscrapers, shopping malls and arcades: SM Shoemart, Landmark, luxury hotels, famous restaurants and bars, famous shops such as Louis Vuitton Gucci, Benetton, LEVI'S, Cinderella, Fairmart, Via Venetto, Rusty Lopez where I bought my fabulous signature shoes made by Rusty, at first thought wondering why when people looked at my shoes with frightened disgust and whispered "Ahas!!!!!!" OMG! I didn't really know at first that the pair of shoes I bought was created with white snake skin leather! Oh my! I first thought it was a jacquard decor style of the shoes.

Being a cook makes me better cook at home too specializing on different cuisines:

FILIPINO FOODS:

Pancit, Lumpia (Eggrolls, Springrolls, Fresh lumpia), Adobo, Pork tamarind soup with veggies, Palabok, Pinakbet, Paksiw, Pinangat, Laing, Fried fish (panfried or steam fish of all kinds), Pork and or Beef stew Pork with banana heart, Beef or pork stir-fry, mussels soup, crabs with lots of  ginger, or crabs or any other sea-foods with coconut milk and a lot of foods with coconut milk in it. Depends on availability of ingredients.

WESTERN FOODS:

Roast turkey with stuffing and gravy, Roast chicken with stuffing and gravy, Hamburger & Fries, Deep fried halibut, Meatballs, Shepherd's pie, Salisbury beef steak, Chicken wraps, spare-ribs BBQ, BBQ steak beef and pork.

CHINESE FOODS:

Chowmein, eggrolls, springrolls, wonton soup, egg-fuyung, deep fried prawns, 3 hour soup, garlic boneless pork, deep fried chicken breasts, chopsuey, Chinese curry foods, fish with taosi, chicken teriyaki, siomai

SPANISH FOODS:

Afritada, Caldereta, Menudo, Embutido, Empanada

ITALIAN FOODS:

Spaghetti, Rotini, Fetuccini Alfredo (Seafoods), Linguini, No Egg Yolk Pasta with beef and veggies, Lasagna

JAPANESE

Sushi (Seafoods or the California rolls) 

What I haven't try yet are Mexican foods, Indian cuisines and Thai spicy foods. 

Maybe next time when I have more time to deal with it.

 

The Will To LIve Is A Universal Right

 I'm still in a state of shock of my health condition feeling like I'm in one of the episodes of DR. HOUSE and the GOOD DOCTOR. Don't you missed those 2 medical series on your TV? Hey, you know what? I am in need of the best Diagnostic Team ever because my life is at stake!

It's not that I am battling wits with highly intelligent humans who are specialist, doctors and nurses but because just like you I can relate with your task, duty and responsibility because my own parents are also health care workers. My father worked in the military as a soldier/medic for Red Cross garnered so much medals including the Royal Purple Cross and other medals of valor and bravery during tour of duty in Vietnam and his rescue missions during disaster, typhoons and earthquake being there as first respondent to bring relief of food, medical supply, medicines and all what is necessary to save lives. He was under the leadership of platoon leader Capt. De Villa who had been promoted Secretary of Defense for the government in later years. Blas Ople was my uncle who was the Minister of Labor during the Marcos regime. Former President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo is my cousin's aunt. My dear Mother is a nursing attendant worked in the Army General Hospital together with my father and had done rural service for health care. Passion and courage towards  this chosen kind of work also has benefited me when I became a medical representative for United Laboratories. It was the largest pharma in the Philippines too generous for affordable medical products and had helped and donated medical supplies and medical equipment to many hospitals and clinics in the Philippines. 

Now what? Don't let me misunderstood. I am battling with my own life to live and survive and that's a universal human rights. Anybody trying to outsmart me or had chosen not my partner in my willingness to live should be reported to the Human Rights Commission under Geneva's Act and United Nations Human Rights Advocate. 

Sure thing, you the health care workers are my health care partners! Support me for my second term of life. I died before at a very young age! Don't let me die again. I am not Jesus Christ that will continue to live forever. I am just nobody but you as in just like you I WANT TO LIVE & SURVIVE. Is that hard to understand?

Well, don't know if I have to reveal that secret to you. Maybe some other time, some other right  time. Ciao and have a great day even if it's Friday the 13th.

Dietary Practice

 I woke up feeling in the subconscious state of mind or dream state, one afternoon when suddenly a lovely woman in brown cardigan woke me up real good. First thought she was the beautiful Cathie in the Jack Ryan's Prime Video action series that my husband and I used to watch. She's a spitting image of Cathie. Guess what she's the dietitian of the hospital. She talked to me kindly and in friendly manner about the kind of diet required for my health. She even gave me a list of what to eat and what to avoid, a list of healthy diet required for my health condition. Wow! She's really that nice and doing her duty like its a responsibility. She just make sure that I follow what should be taken for foods and what foods are not to be consumed. Fair enough. To tell you the truth the foods for breakfast, lunch and dinner here are awesome! I can't complain. Thanks a lot!

My God! I didn't know that mango, avocado, and bananas are not good for my health. 

Three weeks ago, I lost my appetite and I was always craving for fruits. I was eating pineapple, watermelon, melon or cantaloupe, apples, grapes and bananas. Then my doctor in CR told me that bananas are high in potassium and I should not eat banana. Gee, I like bananas and the cooking banana with coconut milk. I ate so many yellow bananas last week. 

Today, I'm scheduled for my 5th HD. But they want to show the PD how it works. I am comfortable with the HD actually. The problem is the transpo. Home to hospital. NRH is way too far away from our home. My hubby has to drive 2 hours from home to NRH 2 hours to get back home while my autistic child waits for him. I would like to have my HD here at NRH however the distance to my home is simply way, way too far. I wish there's a Dialysis Center somewhere in CR closer to our home. 

I hope that I am not being misunderstood with my way of thinking and blogging. I know that there  are too many sensitive people on earth. I am very sensitive too. I can feel more ad perceive what you have in your mind. I am not numb of how you feel and what you are thinking. I studied Psychology and ESP is part of my very good sense. I know what's in your mind. Tele-kinesis power? Hmm...I am not Carrie. Not yet. LOL. Ha ha ha!😀

Note: One of the health care workers said that this hospital is almost like PGH because of the many Filipinos working here (nurses, therapist,in janitorial services, porters). Wow! The Ministry of Health had chosen Filipinos to work here in the Health Care Industry based on  their expertise, work experience and skills. Why not? The Filipinos are hard working people! However, Canadians the White Race are also doing their excellent job in providing health care and support no matter what race you belong.

Latest News About Me

 How could I ever still do this thing of blogging despite my health condition? Simply the reason and ANSWER TO THAT IS when your mental health is still strong and never been affected by other health woes, worries and uncertainty then you can still function normally using your brain to think, analyze, solve problems, and if you can still use your hands to operate computer then blogging is not really complicated. However there is that limit to what you can blog. The limit to what you can see, hear. listen to, describe or explain could be limited in the sense that you are stuck in a place of confinement such as in the hospital. It would only be the situation within your surrounding around that facility and all the rest of the  interactions within you from doctors to nurses and everyone within your surrounding would be the access to anything that you can write. 

Here's the good news...my dear loving husband brought my laptop and instead of staring at the ceiling then I can use it. I can get into Facebook and chat with my friends, sister, aunts, brothers,etc. I wish could be with my family  back to our home. This bring me so much joy not to feel so unhappy about my condition. At least, makes me stronger. Also the good thing is I don't feel any pain. The doctors, nurses keep on asking me if I feel any pain. So far I don't feel any pain at all. Thank God! It's just felt uncomfortable being poke with needles for the blood work so many hundred times and for IV and dialysis. Wow! It feels like pin cushion here!Opsi! Not from me, the pin cushion word > it was told by one of the health care workers when she saw the black and blue bruises on my hand. (Don't worry my skin heals itself back to normal) Oh, I'm not complaining just that my hand got black and blue and had marks of all the needles  used to draw blood since Sept 29, 2023. Well, getting used to it now. No pain no gain. lol. OMG! Why don't you use TIDE, SUNLIGHT & ARM & HAMMER?

Just maybe they thought I don't feel the pain and no pain at all so they keep poking my hands to draw blood. lol. Not that funny. I know there are doing their great job. The health care workers are doing such amazing responsibility of providing the great care they are supposed to do. I know medical procedures and protocol as when my mother worked in the military hospital as nursing attendant and my father who worked as medic for Red Cross and chief clerk in the Admission Office for the OIC in the same Army General Hospital. I also volunteered in that same hospital at a very young age at the Orthopedic ward doing minor duties helping high ranking military nurses and doctors. I was a medic in the CAT program during my HS Years. I worked in pharmaceutical company as a medical representative conducting free medical clinic at DRTS Department of  Health in Philippines.Well, that was long time ago.

 I know for sure medical terminology and medicines but my own health condition is something new and overwhelming.

For  now, have to relax and keep my mind busy on some other things to keep me busy and not think negatively. I met my new kidney specialist with her therapy dog Atlas. To be thankful for all the blessings that come my way. The kindness and compassion of all the health care workers (hundreds of them, wishing I could post all their names here but I'm not sure whether they would like being read through blogs (I would inquire on that later) are providing is an assurance that I will soon return to my normal life. I wished. I hope🙏🙌💓Thanks everybody you are all God servants in providing so much care, attention, and being natural in your chosen field of work. The work of health care workers are the most remarkable honorable way of serving people in need of health support. They are like soldiers in a different field. They are the new heroes and hope they also receive medals for their gallant bravery, valor and kindness, compassion towards their patients. That was it ...not always for the money. They are of service to help cure the sick, treat the wounded, restore the patient's self-esteem, bring back them to recovery and make sure that they receive the best health care ever under their watch.

Beautiful Autumn

 SEASON OF FALL. IT's lovely Autumn and the foliage of the trees are so beautiful stunning!

 

Autumn is the most spectacular season of all because of the lovely beautiful colors of foliage: warm yellow, yellow orange, orange, red, maroon... crimson tide

I wish could be outside and have them for my photography and videotaping.

I wish could do all the things that keep me busy just as in before nature hunting, glorious and bounty.

Anyway, without much further a do let us just mesmerize and just be happy about the works of other people when it comes to nature tripping, artistry through their photography and video. Thanks!