Sa tutuo lang merong malas at merong suerte na bahay. Do you believe? In my own case and story I have favorite place where the future is bright and a lot brighter. I know when the house is in the right position wherein it doesn't need the feng shui alignment and knowledge. But that's only relevant within four to five years of stay any years added to live in the same place, house or area is not good anymore. That's my only assumption and in my own experience. Or maybe because I am so choosy and preferred to live in a place where it can accomodate to my writing plans. You know when all the words, all the stories are written and you already finished with that particular story then it's time to move and move on otherwise it has a bad karma already. That's how it feels. Thank goodness we are only renting this house and I have the chance or all of us to move out.
Am I superstitious? Somehow I can sense I am very superstitious. I know that in my previous houses we had moved in and moved out there are certain values and particular peculiarities in those places. At first not seeing them in a glance or after few months of staying in that area, in that particular house then I can sense that the "environment " is not right for me or for my family. It's not a place where I can call home that's the fact of the truth. It has bad vibes. Or it because the outside forces within that house is not suitable for my taste or those people around is not into my liking as if they are group of people who backfight at each other. Darn! Not that Wisteria Lane okay. Am I a desperate housewife? I think I am desperate when I cannot achieve my goal or pursue my goal for the day and the days to come. I always have a plan and I missed one plan to the next plan then it's giving me a headache and stressful pressure and from that alone everything becomes frustrating and I have to be alone for a while in my own little world. Sounds like being autistic ha? Maybe I am. I always want to excel and achieve perfection and seeking perfection is such a denial of my ego and super ego combined. lol. Now you're laughing too. I know. Everyone is a self-seeking perfectionist in the blogworld. Our own world to succeed despite all the rejections implemented by the writers who are bookish and relied too much on their books who are best sellers. But...wait. Did you know that the best sellers or author of books of the "best sellers" were not really the ones who are the rejectionists but the publishers of the books? But why we be frustrated on such thing when you can blog. Blogging is more fun. Now if the publisher wishes to publish your own story for their own self-seeking perfection then why not but they have to pay right?
Then when they can pay and they bring in money to me then I can move on and that's what it takes to really MOVE ON.
